Deep meaningful friendship over friendship on financial support
I realized that I am not able to mingle with hedonistic friends that thrive on comercial and capitalistic things.
When I was 16, I wanted to have more friends, but as soon as I did, I had to go everywhere (at the cinema, ice skating, various cafes, malls...), because I didn't know better. I thought those were the best hanging out spots.
But then I realized that, if I don't spend the same amount of money as they do, then I cannot hang out with them, because they prefer living that lifestyle.
Whereas I'm more of a "martyr" (as if they would see me), sitting in the grass and not caring about the world.
My friend told me I am similar to Karl Marx, which at first was like a compliment, but then it felt as if there was a clash between our lifestyles.
Thus, I think I just want to isolate from them and I don't want to go to any of those stupid fucking places I so desired when I was 16. I don't need them, and I don't need to pay a ticket in order to hang out with someone.
And I know that both sides can accommodate to one another but:
- I don't want them to complain because I don't go anywhere with them.
- I don't want to talk about money all the time.
- I don't want to support capitalism.
This will sound rude, I know, but I think we're not on the same wavelenght.
And if they don't want to hang out with me on spacehey, then I don't want to go with them at thrift stores.
There, I said it.
I don't know, man, I'd rather value us sitting on a window of abandoned house like homeless people and talking about deep stuff like existentialism from the noon to midnight, than going around the town and spending money just to talk about mundane things for what... few hours, few hours of standing, walking, few hours of putting pressure on our feet with billion shallow things.
13/3/2025